Monday, August 25, 2008

You're not going to believe this

I don't think the justice system we have is not correct fro this day. More appropriate I believe would be intead of accusing someone of a deed such as murder or insider trading we go a step further and accuse them of the personality traits we automatically associate with these deeds such as being untrustworthy, malicious or epically devious.

Good idea? Nah you're right forget you read anything.

Here is some lines for you to think about:

"Contaminated order"

"Enslave the body to free the mind"

Friday, August 22, 2008

Seperate selves seperate souls?

I don't know If I have told you my thoughts on the seperate selves within us. This should support my last idea of God being that voice in my head because even though I am forced to shift between identities that voice remains unchanged, only my emotions are affected and how I respond to certain situations. By the way I am very scared because I don't know wether this eternal voice is My Lord or The Devil....in all his sly and ...mysteriously devious glory. 

Ok well all that aside here is my opinion on seperate identities that arise in response to either the environment or the people around them, just as one identity associates with work, one with home and one with your yoga class or whatever, put simply. But I think we can change identities as often as every 10 minutes. Sometimes we have identities that don't arise for years. This is my explanation for our forgetfulness and the way the years seem to get away from us as we get older.

The reason is that if one of our identities remembers an event than the other identites will not remember it. This is how the brain works, we only remember something when we find a path to the desired information through our brain cells, through associated memories. This is how we move from self to self. Since every self has it's own experience of things, the time between when a self recedes and when it reawakens can seem like no time at all, like in a deep sleep we are out for hours yet it seems like only a few minutes. This causes people to say: "Well that went quick" or "It seems only yesterday that I was -x- years old." 

Well this concept is fairly accepted I think already, but I have another twist to put on it. If we have many different identities than is it not viable that each identity has it's own soul. Than our bodies must be host to 5-100 souls, each with their own fate in the afterlife...what a thought, the seperation of these souls when we die, able to look at eachother objectively. Some will burn in eternal damnation and some will enjoy eternal life and paradise.

STOP!

I insist on explaining my interpretation of what our soul is. Put simply it is the identity that we construct throughout our lives that we aspire to become, in all it's totality. Becoming one with our souls is what makes us happy, I can't speak for the whole of humanity but the greatest paradise is to be one with our soul for all eternity, the afterlife. Isn't someone's ultimate aspirations the real way to seem into someone's heart, and the most beloved possession we can own, and share with great caution. I'm not talking about fickle goals like "I want to be a vet" or "I want to own the most awsome guitars in the world." I t is more along the lines of, "I want to be adored by everyone." or even "I want to be the most tragic figure that ever lived, striking awe into those who hear my story." What makes us happy? I tell you it is not enjoyment of the moment and what it does to our bodies it is the exitement beforehand, during or after that is really us becoming closer to our souls.

So there you go, we can identify our different selves by our soul's own identity. Let me put some more questions into our head. As children time moves more slowly, we don't change identities as much when we are infants? Now is this because these identities are dormant or can we create identities? When considering the latter we face the idea that we create souls...this makes things complicated. No I think it either of those that i mentioned before. As children our various selfs are unified in their sole purpose. It is as we grow older that these seperate. It is also apparent that collisions between two of these selves is what makes us angry, not violent but angry and resentful.

The next question is what should we strive for. A unified collection of selves, returned to a state close to which when we were infants? This would surely help us remain constant in our values and stop us from forgetting things but I must "meditate" on this.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

I'm posting again, because I asked God for wisdom over anything else around five years ago so I'll write with the assumption that maybe he has given me something worth sharing, but I'm just a retard at heart so no worries if no-one can make sense of any of it I just need some kind of outlet so here I am writing long pretentious sentences. Strap in and lets faff about some!

Where is God? It is something I would love to know for sure, out of all the voices that speak to us constantly which is the voice of reiteousness and infinite wisdom? I'm going to take a guess. Within my head is two entities that are with me at all times. I'm going to call these two voices "My emotions" and " My conscience".

My emotions are feelings that often confuse my conscience, giving me urges and fears that I don't understand. They are activated by being in different environments mostly and sometimes by the people I interact with.

My conscience is a voice inside my head that speaks to me in very unexpected manners, it takes on the tonal qualities of my own voice and distracts me from the rest of the world when listening to music, having a conversation or trying to get to sleep, in fact all throughout the day, non-stop.

Other voices which speak to me are external, such as from other people, words and sounds generated by mechanics or the wind. However I like to believe that God is with me always so I think that he couldn't be any of these voices (however I do believe that through uncanny circumstance and timing I am recieving messages, but this does not satisfy me as being God's only voice, he is more involved."

I am mildly sure that My conscience I have known for a few years now (since I devoted myself to serving a higher power having been dissatisfied with humanity), that keeps me awake, causes me to do clumsy thing on an hourly basis and has an opinion on just about everything is God speaking directly to me. I don't know If anyone else has this same voice but I would love to know your thoughts.

But the more I think on it the more it makes sense, from this voice there seems to be an everlasting flow of information that I don't have any idea where it came from. People call me a quiet person when I am around a few people, maybe so but I tell you it's God's fault, he won't shut up. I can't play music, among other things with his drawl.

When the conscience speaks to me it seems so clear in my head but it gets fudged when I try to express it. It also conflicts directly with my emotions, it is able to take an objective approach to everything. When I obey it's orders I become relaxed and happy whereas the places my emtions take me turn everything to ship.

Tell me I'm crazy, go on, how do I know you don't secretly suspect the same thing, how do we know when we are on the path rie-tchess-ness or wether we are deep in the thick black tar of our humanity, how do you know I won't change my mind and post something completely
different in another year? God knows, ask him.