Thursday, September 18, 2008

Why doesnt God answer prayers???

Why!?! You ax.

Why doesn't God heal amputees but still heals cancer victims???

This is a non ambiguous situation where the only thing that could restore an amputee's leg is God's intervention, it is a perfect test of the power of prayer. So obviously God doesn't exist because a fair God would definitely heal every good willing person regardless of their life wrecking ailment! I choose my words carefully because I am paraphrasing http://www.whywontgodhealamputees.com/

Who uses this rationale as evidence that God is nothing more than an imaginary figure that has no purpose in OUR lives. I do not intend on crushing this argument which is skillfully drawn out over about a million pages, my only purpose is to inspire ideas.

Why doesn't God answer my prayer you ask. Like a pretentious bastard I answer in questions, 3 infact.

What is your prayer???

Are you testing God or do you truly want what it is that you claim to be asking for?
A predictable response i know, but one that wasn't addressed in the site, in the appropriate
section at least, please if you find it tell me.()

What makes us happy? Answering this question will determine what God desires to give us, we pray for what we want, we want what makes us happy.

I am going to tell YOU what makes YOU happy, OK! Tell me if I am wrong because thats what people like me need, people to tell them to stop assuming the thoughts of other people and the workings of the universe as if they think they are GOD.

But anyway here we go:
We WANT to be part of something, to involve ourselves in a group things or individuals no matter how large or small. This is why friends and loved ones are the best thing in the world, that build us up and destroy us. Achievments make us happy because we believe it will help us be accepted by people. Now this seems simple enough but in result we are caught in a cycle of finding ourselves accepted and then naturally, uncontrollably ascending from this safe haven and seperating ourselves again, as we always strive for a higher plateau....of ....who we are accepted by.....like having better friends. (God is the only thing that fulfils my life, YOU all can go out and party with friends and do all the craziness you like, but know that I have been there, exactly where you are, in youor life, and any happiness is shallow compared to the specialness of being connected to the everlasting GOD.

Whew, that sentence was TOO LONG. o well, it makes me wonder though (if you agree mildly with what I have ranted) that how would magically regrowing your leg help you in this situation, people don't judge you for being an amputee and you can still have friends (If they did judge you, you wouldnt want to be friends with them no?)

But the question is still there, if an amputee claims to have prayed to GOD sincerely with all the faith of the world there is still no effect to this action. Well this takes me to my next topic:

What is praying?

OK when you pray you think of closing your eyes, looking to the heavens and speaking as sincerely as possible in order to inspire within us an awareness of the presence of the concious Lord of the universe. In the end it can be dissapointing when there is no epiphany or warm awsome feeling. That is because GOD is present ALL THE TIME. he doesnt just take notice of you when you do a few hail Marys, etc. And you don't feel different because you have known GOD all your life and you just accept it as the norm.

Hence every sincere thought and deep desire is a prayer to the Lord, the truthful statements that are made within yourself, the voice of your soul. 

So maybe an amputee asks GOD to heal his leg or eyes because at that particular point in time he wants to play a game of soccer with his friends. But deep down being amputated means he attracts many people sympathetic of his ailment and being amputated is a blessing. So is this the answer to a prayer? What does God have to do with any of it?...

How do you know your prayer is answered?

If you had your leg amputated and having that leg is the only way you can ever speak to another person again, than you have prosthetic legs, which by this stage are just about better than real legs...almost. And what if loneliness is your blessing. When I feel lonely it makes me feel closer to God, I like it better than most things....Haha....loneliness is happiness can you believe what I am saying? You must think I am MAD! Go away and never question the real world again if you do accept that all you see with your eyes is all there is, you live for the purpose of laughing and moaning only, you are a slave to no-one but yourself....ye scurvy dog! Yarr

If your prayer has been answered, you will feel happy. The end.

BTW there is also the possibility that I am correct about each person being hosts of multiple selves and each one of these could pray differently resulting in CHAOS! YOU DO NOT WANT WHAT THEY WANT! YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT! YOU WANT TWO THINGS AT ONCE! God somehow makes you both happy. For example: One self wishes to be left alone while the other to be surrounded by friends. All the person's friends die. The person is now both alone AND surrounded by God's love at the same time (as he always was but never appreciated it in the same way or made himself open to it.). Aetheists do not understand that liberated feeling of loneliness in the way that I do. They do not understand themselves the way I do. This may or may not be truth.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

What am I doing now?

What am I doing writing in these blogs?

How rational are my sentences really. How deluded can I be and to what extent can people correct my arguments, nobody does becasue of either two things: They don't care, they believe I am correct or they want me to remain in a state of ignorance so that they assert their higher level of awareness of the workings of the universe.

But here we go, I went out for a bit of saturday night fun last night for the first time in years. I went to three parties all through the day, they were all very different from eachother. A shindig in the park with some roudy former school friends, a house party thrown by soccer nuts for a girl's 21st and then it was ouit to the city where me and two mates snuck into the club to enjoy the DJ and dancing and live musicians. Didn't drink that night but I know from experience that it doesn't help in any way in changing my experiences. But anyway I thought a solid night of adventure was it.

Anyway this was fun in the same way that I would enjoy knitting underwater. Strange and menial at the same time. It's not where you go or what you do that adds to the experience but the people you're with or the possibility of hooking up. 

I feel that this is why I don't go out often, I enjoy being around people but only for a short amount of time, say an hour. This is because I purposefully attempt not to develope any sort of relationship with anyone if I don't have to. I know that If I do I will eventually betray them and they will betray me in a way, because they or I will change into another one of our "selves" (see previous blog entrys). This would be fine if I could have a relationship with just one of their selves but what you tell that self will be known by their other selves, enemys and strangers. There is no solidity in a relationship like that. The only solid relationship that I can find happiness from is this one right here. Sifting through my thoughts in my never-ending conversation with God and the devil. In the divine creator is one self that has only love for me and you (but i don't really care about you do i?). This is the only relationship I need in my life the best that can ever be found in the universe. My feelings are proof enough to me.

Or heres food for thought. Because I am surrounded by people on a day to day basis (my family, friends, colleagues, superiors, whatever) I am mistaking the happiness I recieve from them as a result of only my intimate relationship with God. 

What the fuck do I know go to bed!~